eX-istential Crisis?

Hi X,
I see you're doing all hunky-dory in there, happily trying to mimic my 'spinning' moves, while lying horizontally in your bubble. So all that is super. But it's a few minutes before we'll probably know who you really are - XX or XY and I have this sudden feeling of sadness in me today.
It may have been because my day started off on a solemn note, seeing what happened in Japan today. As much as it hurts to see those videos and pictures, I cannot help but think that somewhere we (humans) are responsible for nature's wrath. We aren't living as we were meant to and definitely are'nt giving back enough to her, so she chooses to grab our attention this way, time and again. To kind of scold us for our careless behaviour and warn us that if we dont behave ourselves, things can only turn for the worse. The only thing, of real consequence, that we can do today, other than pray and hope from wherever in the world we are, is to resolve to be even more greener than we already are. To reduce our carbon footprint even more and take some time out to make peace with nature. To plant more trees, use less paper & plastic, take the train/ bus more often and re-use and re-cycle even more. Think twice before buying or throwing away, anything. In our very own little ways, each one of us can pacify nature and make her happy again.
Thanks as usual, for letting me vent there.
On another note, I am also a little more sad that today, we'll know who you are. As much as I am rooting for you to be a girl, it does suck that knowing your sex today, will put aside all the anticipation that has been a fun part of having you around, until today. It's been nice thinking of you just as 'X' so far, as weird as that sounds and that is what we 'll continue to refer to you as, even here on. But still - today might be saying good-bye to the 'perhaps' factor that has been associated with you.
So whatever it is X, whether you're XX or XY, I just want you to know something - You rock!!! For letting me be the way I ve always been, even this far. For living in your random world which co-exists so well with mine, eating everything I eat, drinking everything I drink, spinning furiously as ever with me, running when I am late for my train to work in the mornings, going to all the possible concerts with me and even dancing through the night, randomly learning Ethiopian shoulder shrugs in Washington DC. I certainly could'nt have asked for a better 'you' and whatever you may be here on - XX or XY, know that you will always be my rockstar!
I should rush now, since I am late for your appointment again :) So come on, it's time to run to the subway again - Ready, get set and whoooooooooosh!!!!!!!!!
Love ya lots,
Shweyts